update

still at 122..... 2 pounds from my first goal whatever still good though. but the thing i wanted to tell y'all is what i ate today it's not good but not super bad so
what i ate today:
breakfast: NONE!!!!
lunch: NONE!!!!!!!
diner: 3 eggs with a slice of cheese, 2 slices of whole white toast, with 1 hash brown
snacks: 5 pieces of Doritos I stopped at five!!!!!!!!! yayyyy i stopped myself!!!!!!!!!!!

okay so considering i didn't eat anything for breakfast or lunch i think i didn't do tooooo bad

ahhahahah

watching real world. i love love the new people. I love knight i loved when he said he didn't like Ryan cause he had like femmin emotions. i laughed my freggin ass off. Ryan is getting so emotional over the girls fliring with other guys. which again i laughed soo hard. My brothers the same way, there like emotional twins or something. i sugest ya'll watch the season i think it's gonna be so funny!!! there's already drama

In other news holy cow my obsession (running) is freggin going on the back burner cause its been like in the 90's every day and its been hard to run. so i've only been doing 2 miles a day.
also cross country tryouts are soon and i'm not ready!!!! i would die if i ran a 3 mile race anytime soon :P

what i ate today :
breakfast: 1 pancake
lunch: none :P
dinner: a weird sub thing with meatballs in it
i only ate it cause my dad brought it home and was like u need to eat u didn't eat lunch so i ate it dammit....

very awesomely good day!!!!! and i need advice

hahaha yayyyy weighted myself this morning and dadada!!!! i was 122 yayy 2 pounds untill my goal and just in time for a pool party i was invited too. YAY

also i need advise so can my awesomely awesome followers please tell me if this is crazy,

okay i was friends with this girl since i was 6. She was my BEST friend and we're were really cool. but a year or two ago i was over here house and we decided that we wanted to go to her friends house. we went and she took a cirgaret from her friends house and smoked it. I freaked the fuck out. Now i was in the 6th grade and niave. she is a year older than me so she was in 7th grade and i was in 6th. so it was a big deal for me. also she played around with a lot of guys and had already had sex which also was crazy to me. I saw that she was going down a bad path. so when her parents went looking 4 her i lied and said that she walked to the house. because i didn't want her to get in trouble. i walked back over to her and told her to put out the cigeret and that i told her dad she was on her way home. she said thanks for not ratting me out. i went home. i didn't ever try to get in contact with her i was done. i couldn't take it. it was to much for my tiny 6th grade mind to handel. she tried coming over and talking to me but i refused and didn't open the door..i saw her again three months later (my dad let her in) she said she was getting therpy and that she was in recovery from depression. i felt really bad for her. we talked but i never tryed to get in contact with her again. I've been thinking about her a lot lately and wondering if i made the right desision in not talking to her. now that I've gotten older i feel bad that i didn't try to stop her or talk it out with her. wow now that i've tought about it i feel soo bad i didn't try to help her.
i want to talk to her again and she lives down the street. but she most likely hates me and so does her family. but I'm willing to deal with that if it means we could be friends again.
so my question is, do you think i should go over there and try to talk to her?
is it too late?
P.S. my friends hate her and so does my family so you guys are the only people i could turn to about this. I know this is selfish but could you guys please give me some advice?

wierd day

today was weird. guys flirted with me? me the girl who guys have always consittered a friend , unless they were perverts and thought they could creep up into my innocent mind and get into my pants (cough) (cough) ex boyfriend. i did wear a tight shirt and a skirt today which is most likely it.. i geuss they saw there was a person under those huge baggy t shirts i wear all the time. well whatever, so in class this guy i meet this year wrote property of (his name) on my arm. it was weird. but i liked it?I think i liked belonging to some one again. he's a nice guy which i haven't had any of those ever liked me.Anyway, were not dating nor do i even like him in that way. he has been flirting with me a lot tough. now that i think of it. but of course he makes a move on the last week of school? haha no that's bullshit I'm not getting myself involved. i'm haveing fun this summer i'm traveling and going to have a good time as a singe. also i went to my last bell which is usally the funnest but i was cranky and tied , I haven't been sleeping well lately since i have like fucking 4 projects due this week that i was told about in the beginning of this week. does any one else think that's insane. on the last week aren't you supposted to be relaxing? not stressing out more than you have all year.

breakfast: two waffles with no syrip 210 cals
lunch: half pbj sandwich, 3 weird awesome tasting things my friend brought in 1,000 cals
diner: none yet
snacks: none HELL YES FINALLY!!!!!!! XD

yayyyyy

how the hell i did it i will never know. but i lost two pounds!!!! i really haven't been able to eat healthy cuz we had family over and everyone's fat so the only non - obease girl in the family MUST eat a whole months worth of food in one sitting!!! wtf? and god forbid she eat a salad or not have desert. then all hell breaks loose!! gosh there always on top of me about eating and how i like to eat healthy. there all like why would you want to do that? You're young, so your supposted to eat bad. NO, i will not go back into my 7 jeans almost 9 no no NO!! I'll will not go back there ever again. the last of them left today so I'm home free!!!! So i tought, today dad brought home the hell house food (Mcdonals) so i lied and said i'd already eaten.

breakfast: 3 pieces of 100 cal toast
lunch: cookie, sandwich, orange jello, water
dinner: none XD
snacks: lots of chips 3 cookies (the fucking snacks always kill me.)

what i'll do

i was ready a bunch of blogs and they all had a post about what they'll do to get thin. i think that's a great idea and here's mine,


run at least a mile a day
read more
do 25 crunches a day
eat healthy
stop dressing in t-shirts and wear something nice
staighten my hair more often, even though i takes forever
get my 3 mile time down to 25 mins
that's 8.3 mins per mile

yesterdays and todays report

yesterday:
breakfast:none :D
lunch:garden burger with fries (sigh)
dinner:none
snacks: fucking 6 chocolate cookies

yesterday was okay i went to a water park yesterday and put on the dreaded bikini and da da da da... it looked better then expected :D but not good enough i will get to my goal weight which is 120 with a awesome bmi of 17.7 yeah i know my doctor will be pissed (she already yells at me for the recent weight loss. but i'll be able to wear whatever i want and not have to worry about tummmyfat so who give a flying flipper.

today (so far its been bad)
i'm so sorry guys i majorly screwed up. my dad brought home thoose little donut hole things from fatty fatterson aka dunkin' donuts and brought up a half full box of munchkins and i was half asleep and not thinking so damn it i ate like 15 of then before i realized what i was doing :,( there 60 cals a piece and 60 * 15 is 900
so i'll not be eating lunch and only a smidgein of dinner so i dont look like a cow when i go to school tomorro.

well hope ya'll have better luck then i did today